I notice the place in me that still wants security from an external source. What does it seek? Security through money, relationships, love, and so on.
What a great find! And how utterly hopeless!
I am so thrilled to find yet another layer of this great delusion, so I can ‘roast’ it in the fire of inner [...]
Archive for September, 2008
The Benefit of Insecurity
Posted in Ego, Heart Essence, Identity, Insecurity, Open Attention, Pain body, awakening, tagged Emotional Harmony, Insecurity, Open Attention, Pain body, personality integration, security, self love on September 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
In the Light of the Heart
Posted in Heart Essence, Inquiry, Open Attention, Pain body, awakening, tagged emotional pain, Heart Essence, Open Attention, stillness on September 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
This morning, still lying in bed, I directed my attention deep into the heart. It’s a tangible sensation in the heart center, an essence we can feel and ‘drink.’ I noticed the following:
At first there was a period of deepening my attention into the heart. When that focus had become stable and I could clearly [...]
The Liberating Power of the Heart Essence
Posted in Ego, Identity, Inquiry, Open Attention, Pain body, tagged Ego, enlightenment, Heart Essence, Liberation, Open Attention, Ramana Maharshi, spiritual freedom on September 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
This past week it has become increasingly clear to me that we have direct access to the pure essence of the heart. It is a feeling, a sensation we can become aware of by stilling the mind and directing our awareness to the heart center (in the middle of the chest).
People use different words to [...]
How Not to Fall Back into Suffering
Posted in Heart Essence, Identity, Inquiry, Open Attention, Pain body, awakening, tagged Open Attention, suffering on September 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
When we have a powerful awakening experience it creates ripples, like a rock thrown into a pond. I’ve experienced this ripple effect since going into the heart so deeply last Sunday, with the feisty old pain body throwing at me whatever it could come up with to get me to fall unconscious and suffer. I [...]
Making Heart-Freedom Permanent
Posted in Ego, Fear, Open Attention, Pain body, The Work, tagged emotional freedom, Emotional Harmony, heart, Open Attention, unconditional love on September 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Ha, I’m laughing now. This morning wasn’t so funny, when the good ole’ painbody was doing its dance again, trying its best to douse me with fears and all the other good stuff it has up its sleeve. Now its afternoon and it seems to be taking a break.
I woke up to a deep churning [...]
The Pain Body’s Mutiny
Posted in Ego, Open Attention, Pain body, Uncategorized, tagged awakening, heart, Pain body on September 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
After a good day of not falling prey to old emotions and staying in the heart (=in the moment), I became very exhausted last night. I was bone tired and wasted, unusual for me. What was that? I took a nap in the evening and when I awoke, only slightly refreshed, I realized that my [...]
Day Three of a Deeper Practice
Posted in Fear, Open Attention, Pain body, Uncategorized, tagged Depression, Fear, Heart Essence, Open Attention, Pain body on September 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
This is turning into a journal of sorts for a few days. I am so glad I can share this part of my adventure with you. I hope it is as nurturing to you as it is to me.
Today I noticed how old fears came to claim me again. They sailed in like clouds, but [...]
Managing Fears with the Heart
Posted in Ego, Fear, Heart Essence, Identity, Inquiry, Pain body, The Work, tagged Aloneness, Clear Mind, Heart Essence, Open Heart, unconditional love, Universal Love, Wholeness on September 22, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I don’t know if it really came through in what I wrote yesterday, but I went VERY deep into my heart this weekend. It continued until late at night.
So today “I am paying the price.” (I’m only half kidding here). The price of going so deep into unconditional love, into the ‘heartcave,’ is that much [...]
New Insights about Open Attention
Posted in Guru, Inquiry, Open Attention, Saints, tagged Maharajji, Open Attention, scarcity, The Work, unconditional love on September 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The thought, “I don’t have enough…” is one of the most virulent causes of stress and unhappiness. It is a core delusion, and it hit me today. It was the 35th anniversary of the passing of my guru, Maharajji, and I couldn’t attend the festivities. I spoke to some of my old and close friends [...]
Adyashanti in Conversation
Posted in Ego, Identity, Inquiry, Open Attention, Pain body, tagged Adyashanti, Open Attention, unconditional love on September 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Here is an exquisite 10 minute video of a conversation between Adyashanti and Loch Kelly >>
http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=MsVImg6imX8&feature=related (copy and paste if it’s not live)
They cover some of the aspects of what we are doing with Open Attention, i.e awakening the heart, and discuss the nature of unconditional love.
I often think that it’s difficult for people to [...]
